Overwhelmed

     There has been a lot going on and I've been feeling very overwhelmed lately.  Luckily it's nothing catastrophic but my brain keeps playing worst-case scenarios, and I've disassociated for the last week. 

    Today I'm feeling sort of back to normal. A group of coworkers was discussing religions and after a moment, I got up from my desk and stood in my doorway, to join them.  They all turned around back into their cubicles; the conversation was clearly over. 

    That leads me to think again of CONNECT and what it means to me.  I don't connect well with other people.  Only a slight few I think understand me and I feel safe to open up to them.  I'm sure they know who they are.  I began to think if I can't connect with other people where can I find connections.   I connect with nature in my yards.  I say good morning to the robins as they hop in the grass looking for bugs. I connect with my houseplants and the plants in the garden.  I connect with bees scouring the dandelions looking for the first nectar of spring. 

   My friend, Mandy at Secret Message Society had the word FLOW a few years back, or was it last year?  anyway, she made a book of her journalling about FLOW and I thought I may start journalling about CONNECT and see if I can expand from my initial concept of connecting with other people. I'm learning that connecting can mean a whole lot more.